today i slept till 8(:
okay it's not that late, but still it was damn shiok
despite all th noise my sis made when she got ready for school
and she kept switching th lights on and off, AND MIND YOU I'M AT TH TOP AND TH LIGHT IS RIGHT ABOVE MY FACE ):

but still i carried on sleeping peacefully.

after i woke up i memorised all th aural shit
(which i cleverly forgot during th exam)

then i warmed up my fingers and voice

then left home

reached there quite early so my mom brought me t some nearby temple t pray

anyway i finally got nervous while waiting for my turn outside th room
FINALLY.
somemore th previous candidate, Kunzi came out and told me how fierce th examiner was and i was like ohshit

went in, saw this pink old balding angmoh man
"good morning sir" i said
"good AFTERNOON, amanda" he said
and that was my first mistake alr.

blahblahblah

heard today's school was fun and slacky -,-
wlao my exam should have been tmr lah
then i come back school after th exam for SPA
get t miss double chinese and ONG somemore

today, what did i miss?
slacky missing-sally-lai english, amusing attire check, zarinah videos, zarinah-in-action, everything.

oh whatever
at least it's over(:
XOXO

this weekend is th worst so far
i was really really sad and yes i cried alot
now i'm pretty much finer than i was
but i've a feeling i'll miss you terribly

i alr do.

now you're being really cold t me and i don't like it at all ):
i feel so broken inside ):

anyw, my piano exam's round th corner
in 3 days, t be exact
i really hope i don't make any mistakes
i want t do this well
cos after this exam, i'd be stopping piano for good till O levels are over
YAY
XOXO

th past week was pure slacking + mugging + emotional + boring + exciting + plain stupid -,-
idk what i'm saying cos i'm still being stupid and dumb from th gummy worms i ate just now during chem tuition
HAHAHA I EVEN MADE ZY STUPID LOL ALL HER MOLES QUESTIONS GOT WRONG

anyw i don't rmb what happened this week
oh ya founders day.
lol
after th last lesson angie jax and i went for recess.
we saw that th side gate was open so we were really happy and went 85 t buy chicken rice+ bubble tea

stupid bubbletea shop th service damn lousy.
superrrrr slow.
so we almost didnt have time t return back class and eat

note to self: that stall's peach milk tea is awesome(:

oh and founder's day itself was quite disastrous
that picture ruined everything lah
if only angie didn't point it out t me
i was really sad lah
then angie was being irritating

but after a while ok alr lah
sigh
i'm a jealous woman.

ytd i switched seats with ky for chem(:
HAHAHAH hanyu and linting diffused all their smartness t me(:
i actually understood what lam was talking about lah
and lam appeared taller (and fatter)
and my neck ached from craning t look at th ppt slides

and although i could concentrate better,
apparently hanyu said i was distracting she and linting LOL
oops.

after school it rained super heavy haha
quite fun braving th wind and rain,
felt like a warrior :D

then i vaguely remember hardcore mugging till 1am last night for chem :O

TODAY
selective breeding of big meaty males and small wooly females (sheeps) in bio.
recess was uber spicy chicken rice which set my heart on fire (as kohleelee's sinuous curvey noodles of her mee goreng did t her)

earth hour was DDD:
super hot and we made paper fans (mine was from some chem worksheet

then for Kohleelee's oral practice i suaysuay kena called ):
my presentation was plain stupid but oh well HAHA
i had no idea what i was talking about
-blames it on gummy worms-

skipped cca and went home with becky and ohlee
practiced one hour of scales then collapsed and woke up 2 hours later.

-

i love my phone(:
i like th typing alot thus i'm sending MORE messages than i used t, and therefore i'll burst like nothing this month D:

lastly, i hate fighting with kid ):
if there were one thing i hate about relationships, it's th fighting that comes along with th package.
but everything else makes it all worth it(:

i hope it's really forever
cos i can't imagine what'd it be like without you
XOXO

WHEN I'M WITH YOU faber drive
Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
Babe am i every glad you wanted me too
Its been two years to the day
half the time I've been away
i know I'm not there enough
but that is gonna change
cause I'm coming back
to show you that
I'm keeping the promise that i made

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you

whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
XOXO

ytd went for th piano exam rehearsal thing at th studio thus missed class bbq, DAMMIT.
th studio was huge, and th piano is screwed.
and i finally met Kellyn's boyfriend HAHAAHAH
damn funny his china face
and its super obvious that Kellyn's older.

then last night was rough cos my grandma snored damnnn loudly thus i didnt sleep well th whole night ):
this morning wake up early for bio tuition ):
met zy and went t orchard
it was a huge class in a cramped up classroom and th Pervert Lam P.K guy didn't seem so pervert at all
he looked like a nice old grandfather(:

after that went back with zy and i had been doing heredity till now(:

I think meeting kid on friday only made me think alot more about him now.
this is really bad.
XOXO

Today was awesome yet screwed.
Though i made a terrible mistake, i think it was better this way
At least th guilt is gone(:
and though i only had 2 hours with K, it was good all th same.
and i'm really thankful that i'm forgiven
I REALLY PROMISE T WORK HARD FROM NOW ON
i hope K will do th same...

anyw i really treasured today and being not-so-kid with The Not So Kid
after all it's th last time before Os

ILY
XOXO

Well, happy birthday to me(:

went Bala early in th morning,
had t avoid so many students carrying donation cans all th way from pasir ris mrt t tampines interchange
cos i only had ten dollar bills with me so even if i wanted t be kind and do a good deed on my birthday, I COULDN'T.

bala was so, so mean.
he commented on th pimple on my nose.
"Seriously, Amanda, that pimple on your nose is massive"
"No joke, Amanda, it is very obvious"
"The pimple chose the best place to be at, your nose"
IN FRONT OF TH CLASS WLAOOOOO

lol not only that, he gave me this killer Gan Eng Seng sec prelim paper t do
okay he said it wasnt that tough, maybe its just my brain on birthday mode today or smth
couldn't think lah
did like less than half th qns, th rest dno how t do):

then i went home and ate lunch and came out again
went white sands buy my pen refill then go find saw they all at macs.
go VideoEzy where we inhaled wonderful Fat-Shop-Owner-Guy-B.O. and where ky's membership card got rejected

so we went saw's house watch her china-imported movies

Sorority Row was awesome(:
all th killing and slashing and it had a nice twist in th end.
PSYCHO KILLER BOYFRIENDS!

saw and i were hiding behind huge soft toys and cushions during th killings lol
angie had her eyes and ears shut almost th whole movie LOLOLOL
during th times she didnt shut them, she was immersed in her emath TYS

after that watched Up In The Air
it was super boring -,-
so after a while stopped watching alr.

chiong home with angie after that
i was so worried i'd miss my 7pm curfew

today was a nice day, thanks for all th birthday smses and fb wall posts and th presents(:
and t Saw, Angie, Jax, Kaiyi, Melody and Clara for wasting one whole day with me
and t my family for their thoughtfulness and nice presents also(:
thankyouuuuuuuu

i played more than an hour of piano nonstop just now
and after about 5 rounds of Finale, my vein like kena twisted alr :O
i think i play too hard :/

ohhohoh and th wardrobe and dressing table was moved away alrwhen i came home(:
th room looks so spacious now lah
though now no mirror DDDDDDDDDDDD:

gna mug hard tmr.
finish up ALL remaining do-able homework tmr.
and PRACTICE PIANO
and FINISH THEORY

then i'd be certified for Friday's ____
:D
XOXO

Ytd 's chem remedial was as expected, boring and fruitless.
changed classroom cos surprisingly over 40ppl turned up and th Tutorial Room wasn't big enough.

after th remedial Lam met my mom :O
it was disastrous.
she freaking told my mom that i had a mirror on my table
and i had t explain that it was th class mirror and somehow saw and i had custody over it.
then she showed my mom my test results and ah well it was crap and my mom freaked out cos she had NO IDEA about my test results.
then she say i daydream in class and never take down notes.
i said, I GOT
then she ask me take out whatever notes i had taken down during her remedial just now t prove my point.

i was like OH SHIT
cos th only things i wrote on th paper was some electrolysis mindmap and 2 questions Lam composed (without answers) and "I AM SO BORED" super big and other nonsense.
so i got sent up t th library t think up of whatever she had taught and miraculously i came up with few.

after that, Lam made me stay back t finish up some electrolysis worksheet):
so i sat outside staff room and tried t do lor while my mom went off first.

but Lam was nice, she gave me a chocolate bar(:
then after 2 hours she came and explained and went through th ws with me.
i have cleared my doubts i guess, but i felt like i had let her down):
she looked very sad and disappointed cos i didnt know th basics...
sigh.

after that went t th airport and met my family at Swensens and had lunch and some birthday icecream thingy
then went Tampines and watched Alice In Wonderland(:
wasn't as nice as SOME PEOPLE claimed it t be
quite disappointing BUT I LIKE TH MAD HATTER
HE'S CRAZY CHARMING
i think Alice should have married him lor.

today i sit here in this world feeling all alone cos kid has gone t some stupid camp):
okay so it doesn't make a difference whether he went or not since we dont sms or call anymore
but it feels different somehow.
lol

so today i stayed home and finished emath homework as promised.
i'll be doing more math tmr morning at bala's
then i'll go out.

i feel sad cos idk what kid's been up t these days anymore):

here's t th last half hour of me being young, innocent and 15
XOXO

tmr:
-lam remedial 9-11
- mom meet lam

crap i'm so dead she's gna complain that i daydream in class AGAIN
like how many times alr lah ):
XOXO

recently, my parents' room is infested with bugs.
their wardrobe (which has been along since they got married) finally rotted away and there's like a colony of tiny tiny tiny ant-like bugs living inside
it came t light like a week ago when my sis noticed them crawling in th basin
then we followed th trail t th wardrobe and since then, th room's been smelling of Baygon and now, kerosene
D:

today bala taught integration with th curly noodle strand(:

had Benito Pockett at KFC for dinner, quite disappointing, wasn't as nice as Angie claimed it t be :/

and i came home and did amath holiday hw for 3-4 hours straight
and guess what, i'm just up t question8
zai right!

Amanda The Great Tutor imparted her knowledge t Lowly Tutee Whose Small Name Is Not Worth Mentioning :DDD

oh and my sis went and did something manical t her hair
now she has a Pretentious Fringe (which is actually her ponytail)
damn funny HAHA
too bad mom won't let her cut fringe haha noob(:

I MISS YOU SO MUCH
XOXO

6546) If i knew it would be the last time that I’d see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray to god to watch over you.
If i knew it would be th last time that i’d see you walk out the door,I’d hug and kiss you; and would call you back for just one more. If i knew It would be the last time i hear your voice,I would tape each word and play them back every night. If i knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two to stop and say “i love you” instead of assuming i already do.
XOXO

but then again, maybe bad things are there just to remind us of how good is supposed to look like

last night i cried and made my whole pillow so wet that i had t flip it over.
but it was worth it
thanks mommy

woke up today morning with swollen eyes
and what happened in th morning didnt make them any better, though again, it was worth it
thanks kid

then today was quite sian
very tired most of th times
co was :/
at first very sleepy then after going out for walk and retrieving my english TYS and getting a drink, i felt very much revived(:
then i played Shi Mian Mai Fu with enthusiasm

anyway after that chiong home go tuition and i was slightly later than usual but zy was even later than me, surprise surprise.

angie and saw went today.

now kinda pissed cos my dad keep peeping t see what im doing online and i cant talk t kid ): dammit.
XOXO

hello world
march holidays are coming, i am so happy(:
then again there are sad things too
and there's like a chengyu t describe this complex situation in just 4 words but i don't know what it is .__.

tomorrow is last day of school alr ):
i'm going t study really hard next week and show everyone that i can do it
which reminds me, lam was being really irritating today
cannot stand her >:(
keep arrow th 3 of us at th back dammit

anyway things are really bad now
):
so bye
XOXO

Really Retarded Violet Barney

SS let me down
Please don't let geog be th same
XOXO

Today was horrible.
kellyn crazy one, all of sudden want me during piano lesson pin up hair
dammit lah at school pin not enough, saturday morning also want me pin
i was damn pissed off.

that was just one of lots of horrible things today.

i remember feeling very sad today.
now i don't remember why.
okay maybe i don't WANT t remember why cos if i do i'd just get upset all over again and cause unhappiness t someone else thus i shall be MAGNANIMOUS and not ruin good things.
XOXO

A Beautiful Mess
Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
Based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
'Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words that paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And it's a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like, we are picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life
I've heard But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]

We're still here
What a beautiful mess, this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"

Through, timeless words and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today. Oh, the wait was so worth it.
XOXO

today morning, Lam dressed up specially t do Zaocao with us :D
her jumping jacks super vigorous HAHAHAHAAHAHAH
hilarious ttm.

stole beans from biolab!
put them in random bottle caps found around with water and cotton wool and inside a box(:
hopefully they will grow into tall tall trees one day(:
clara's is Duncan, avelene's NooNoo, melody's Zack, saw's TeeHee, mine's Kid
okay idk why Kid, but clara helped me name it so oh well.

today quite sian
slept in amath/lit
then after school went t eat at simei kfc with saw angie and jax
then i went home and do theory until fall asleep then go tuition and now i'm being sad online
XOXO

i think i get jealous really really easily ):
today was loooooooonngg and really horrible
th morning was one of th worst mornings
then chinese test was quite satisfactory cos i copied really little this time
hopefully i won't fail lol

then thre was double chem lab (dieded) and chiong back t class for vectors retest

stupid saw got t pon th whole of this horribly long day.

oh well i get t pon 30thmarch
though it's a wednesday, but at least its better than nothing

OH YA TMR NO CO HAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
so happy(:
lunch, anyone?
XOXO

PE yesterday was fun
besides doing situps on th floor which caused my butt t hurt tremendously
table tennis with Saw was epic HAHAHA
then play hula hoops in th gym :D
where saw forgot t bring her skirt back up haha and got humiliated by sec3 basketballers

th only reason why i'm talking about PE is cos i'm still aching everywhere

today Lee was PMSing in th morning
wlao she damn pro sia she go decorate th noticeboards for us
DAMN NICE OKAY
with newspaper articles and all
no wonder she so bad mood lol

Kohleelee is an awesome teacher
today went comlab and did compre on songs' lyrics
vanilla twilight failed on us and now i'm online t complete th homework but saw and kaiyi pangseh ):

(i wna watch The Exorcism Of Emily Rose! though i'm sure i can forget about sleeping again after watching)

after school had bio remedial at biolab then went home with jax and vivan

MUGHARD
XOXO