today i learnt t play The Phantom Of The Opera's 'Think of Me' during piano lesson lol
it was wonderful(:
though th huge chords were straining my fingers.

after that went for oral
HAHA i got tam lai yin
i guess i did okay
lol

bala was almost 4 hours today
somemore he was promisng us that he'd let us off slightly earlier today
-,-

anyway it rained like mad and i was cold

oh ya last night i had many many many really vivid dreams
all in one night
i woke up and had so many vivid recollections that i wasn't too sure if they actually really happened or not
it was kind of freaky
like over 10 different dreams sia
:/

i can't freaking do differentiation ):
i tried rate of change and others just now on my tys
all fail sia
):
i think tmr i go school early consult hanyu or smth

sigh i just said th bloody wrong thing again
i keep letting my tongue slip
i know You're very sensitive t this kind of passing comments
but this is how i often communicate with others
and although i don't mean it, i say.

'you suck'
it's so common
i didn't think it'd affect You.

but still it turns out it does.

and i thought we were close enough t not get affected by nonsense like this.

now then i realise how fragile our relationship is.
like Lam's "unstable compounds"
we fight and get upset over almost all things
all things big and small

big things, okay, i understand
but small things like me saying "hurtful" stuff which aren't hurtful at all, they just aren't worth it
esp right after you just got better

"you very what leh"
"you suck!"
"omg i hate you!"
"you idiot"
"go away!"

all these, when used in joking context, is perfectly common and normal
i do it all th time

i don't actually MEAN it

i don't understand why you get so affected by them
maybe cos you have low self esteem or something
i don't know

then, i'm sorry

but you can't blame me, cause this is th way i talk.
so just get over it already.
XOXO