today left bala earlier cos thought wanted t go for chinese tuition
in th end after much deliberation, decided t forget about chinese tuition lol.

so went home and i did bio and smsed people t keep my mind off certain things.
that's kind of why i sent almost a hundred smses today DDD:
confirm burst this month one):

i'm not gna sms anymore next week!

anyw.
these 3 days have been hell
i don't know why he's doing this t me
i srsly don't.

i'm fucking tired of being angry alr
it's been 3 days.
who wouldn't be?

i let him go today.
although i didn't want t
but who was i t stop him?

him, Z, J and E
i bet it looked so much like a double date.

i didn't want t think anymore, so i went t sleep.

woke up, he told me it had ended, was going t dinner with them.
i had a sudden vision and it looked even more like a double date and i was so heartbroken and so fucking jealous.

it's not like i didn't trust him
i trust him with all my heart
it's just that i don't like th thought of him sitting opposite another girl (even if she was my friend) having dinner.
i srsly don't like it.

of course i had promised i wouldn't get upset
so i didn't appear upset t him at all
in fact i think i did a rather good job actually(:

i'm feeling much better now anyways.
just that now i don't know how i can talk t E and pretend everything is fine.
maybe i can
idk
i often surprise myself(:
XOXO